And you could use some help today, packing in the dark, boarding buses north, putting the seat back and grinning with terror flowing over your legs through your fingers and hair...

I was always waiting, always here.

Know anyone else who can say that.

My advice to you is to think of her for what she is:

one more name cut in the scar of your tongue.

What was it you said, "To rather be harmed,

than harm, is not abject."